Over-rated

[greenxyzcannonball]

Anniversaries are overrated. Just thought I'd let you know. Truthfully, I'm beginning to dislike them because I usually end up disappointed, in a pissy mood, or with a headache. Sometimes all three. Anyway. I'm looking for ways to earn money by writing pointless stupid essays, and also to secure my admission into my college of choice. They have some pretty lame topics too, but that's another matter. I am beginning to despise my roach-infested prison. It's never clean, the bathrooms are usually missing various important things (ie, toilet paper, locks, soap...), most of the teachers really and sincerely do not give a damn, and our principal is-I'm convinced- suffering from a Napoleon/narcissistic complex. Delusions of grandeur that only he aspires to. I personally do not give a roach's ass about Test Scores, or Ranking, or the holy trinity of Sports, Boosters and Cheerleading. I just want to survive this year. I have 4 AP courses, but those are my easy classes. Band, Anatomy & Physiology, and Probability & Statistics are actually requiring more of my time and meager brain power than I want them to. I didn't want band to occupy any time really but for the sake of my GPA (which is probably going to suffer as it is, especially after the C in precalculus) I have to do the work. Bleargh. I think I'm already suffering from burnout; I already have some of the signs: irritability, apathy, sleep deprivation, headaches, depression... I'm wondering how I'm going to get through just school alone, not to mention the teen-led small groups at church. Granted, so long as I read through the information and listen to the sermon that morning, I should be fine at night. Hopefully my teachers will get the homework-maddened glaze out of their eyes by september. I wish I could bring my sewing machine to school and work on the costumes during study hall, but a) the study hall tyrant would probably have some choice comments about that; and b) I need to take it to the shop to get the tension fixed. Hopefully that won't cost too much. Sigh. Anyways, a friend of mine is supposed to teach me how to drive stick-shift tomorrow, which should be very interesting. I also feel kinda bad because I was too busy the last couple days of summer to hang out with my friend Becky and I know she's kinda pissed at that and rightfully so. I'm sorry about that.

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[fountainhead4.livejournal.com]

dont worry, im not pissed. we'll hang out eventually