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So I have stuck with Paleo and crossfit and I am down about 30 pounds or so. Had some serious slip-ups this week but I will force myself to get back to Paleo eating. Because holy hell, it works, and I'm only about halfway to where I want to be. 140 would be a heavy-ish normal. "Normal" according to the bmi charts for me would be 125. I think at 125 I would look unhealthy. as I gain muscle, I rather like my curves. I have a decent butt, nice calves, small-but-nice breasts. Trying to tone up thighs, upper arms, and hips, as that's where the fat is clinging stubbornly.
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Today men are frustrating me. Well, more specifically, D. I found some silly little buttons while I was cleaning and thought he'd like them. So I told him I had something small for him and if he had his same office I could leave it on his corkboard. He suggested I meet him at lunch (which is really rare since we don't have similar schedules any more) so I said I'd like to, although I was planning to go for a lettuce wrap or a salad but I could wait a bit. He said he'd have 15 minutes and he'd be out by the krishnas, i said ok. He said his new gf would be there and said he'd rather have what I was going to go for. I replied "I'd be cool with you joining me but I don't think I'm up for dealing with new and probably awkward." He said "I wasn't saying for [gf] to join. I'm literally just sitting out here waiting for you. [GF] has to go shortly."
So I walk out toward there and I'm trying to find him. I see him sitting with someone so I lurked around trying to figure out if the person was gf or another friend of his. He spots me and starts walking toward me with the person who is obviously a girl. So I turn and walk very quickly for his office, leave the envelope and go get lunch. I text him "Hmm. Well, envelope is on your board. I'm headed to dg." "And I'm not happy that me saying "hey not up to this today" got read as "let me try to force her anyway"." "And that sucks because I did want to see you today. Oh well."
Later I texted him "Hope you like the buttons. Found them while I was cleaning and thought you'd appreciate them more than I." and then "If you have time I'm on break 3:45-4:00."
I got back "Sorry, in a meeting now. I've been teaching/meeting and haven't responded yet. Sorry" He passed by me as I was walking to my car and I KNOW he saw me. Still haven't heard anything yet.
I'm pissed because I don't like surprises and I said "I'm not up to this today". I feel like he showed me disrespect; it doesn't matter if he said "hey let me introduce her" or if she asked, he knew I didn't want to do that today. Plus, we had already discussed me meeting her and agreed it was awkward, so it's not like he didn't know my feelings. Maybe it was rude of me but I just wanted to see him, not make small talk with a girl I don't know and don't really want to know. She got mad at him for something she found on his computer and hacked his twitter account to post dozens of nasty tweets. You can't tell me there's not a cache of that somewhere. I'm sorry but I really doubt she can change that much that fast. I wouldn't trust her as far as I could pick her up and throw her over my head.

Also tomorrow I have to figure out the best way to tell a guy I appreciate his invitation but I'm not accepting (and basically I'm friend-zoning him). Sigh. He's nice, sort of, but he just puts me off a little somehow. Something about him just tells me that I can't trust him.

My favorite fighter at practice commented that it was good that I came to practice wanting to fight and I wasn't acting like a groupie. I told him that I was here to fight, and if I wanted something else, I'd've asked for it, but not while I was here to fight. Now any other time, he's sexy and I'd go for him but I almost feel like he was warning me off.

Men, how do they work?!
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Really need to get back on the diet thing, as I have stocked my fridge again. When my brother and Lindsay leave for their new home in Vermont, I may be able to.
In other news, family's situation is bleh. Don't want to go into details, but financially it may be tough for a while. Really need a job and am still looking in Gainesville. I saw the house my friend has offered and it's plenty big for me although it will need a good bit of cleaning (I'm assuming that's from the last "tenant"). Can't bitch about the rent though.
Got doll stuff finished and sent. Deadline isn't until 16th so ahead of schedule. Am also doing triathalon and ran too close last time so need to work on #2 tomorrow.

Things I want in a house: claw-foot tub, window seat, new plumbing, BOOKSHELVES, a real pantry, a closet that can be walked in facing forward.
If I ever have a wedding, bridesmaids' dresses = infinity dress. No hassle about styles really so long as we all agree on guidelines (ex shoulders covered, no halters, whatever).
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I have been failing hardcore with the diet thing, mostly because I am lazy.
In other news JCP has crapped out on me: because of their computer glitch I lost my job AND my insurance. Doubleplusungood. Need a new job.
Also, want to move back to Gainesville. Or somewhere cool and not Jville. All I have here is my parents; all my friends have either moved away or moved on. I have only one tie here and they'll come see me during football season if I move back to gville.

I read over a few IM conversations I had with a former mistake of a boyfriend and dear god, why did I waste so much of my time?? Really must learn to cultivate self-reliance and friendships with other people to avoid stooping to those depths. I'm a little ashamed of myself.

Socks proceed apace. Need to do stuff for swap on doll forum. Third doll has arrived and she's gorgeous, but doesn't have the right wig or eyes yet. When I can afford it, I'll try to get things taken care of.
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I'm a slacker with the whole diet thing. Yes, I know. I ate too many carbs yesterday - I think it was because I really wanted sushi and I didn't have it, so I ate more than I should have to make up for it. Oops. Today I had my sushi (wholefoods has surprisingly good sushi) and I had mochi yogurt for dessert - so dinner is salad + chicken, most likely.

Anyway, saw on someone's facebook the Tumbleweed tiny houses. I checked it out and was loving the Whitbey house. It's listed as a 461 sq ft plan, with a loft over the first floor (loft isn't counted because the sloping ceiling makes it "not habitable"). Part of me was plotting ways to scrape up the money and find an open piece of land, and then I realized something. My apartment is bigger than that house. I have roughly 600 sq ft, and I want to move into a house 2/3 the size of this place? Considering I complain frequently about how I never have enough room, it shook up my perspective. Maybe it's not that I don't have enough room, but that I don't have enough storage (that I have too much stuff is obvious and will go mostly without saying). Holy cow. 600 square feet! That's luxury! So I'm plotting/planning to reorganize a bit, using what I already have, since I can't afford to spend money, really. We'll see how this works out. I'm kind of excited.
greenxyzcannonball: (love hate)
Missed a couple days there. Whoops. I cheated some but I think so long as I try to make carbs no more than 33% of my diet I can probably still lose weight. Today, of course, I blew it, mostly because I was too busy reading to cook. Bad habit that. Also blew off running for a few days, so tomorrow I'm going to have to pay. Eek.
I do think that refined sugar, particularly in stuff like marshmellows, gives me a really bad crash. And not just in the "wow i'm tired" sense but in the "I'm depressed, the world and everyone hates me and I have no friends" sense. Obviously I can't do large amounts of sugar because: a) I want more of it (probably to stave off the crash) and b) I get all depressed when I do crash. Neither are good.

Having issues with my side job. Really need a source of income; things are getting a bit dire. Well, from my standpoint. Need to have outside income coming in rather than using up my savings, which I DO NOT like doing.

SBD: day 10

Jul. 6th, 2011 10:16 am
greenxyzcannonball: (squee)
10:13 am
yay lost 1.3 pounds! I'm about half way to my first goal of losing 10 pounds. I know several people say you shouldn't weight yourself every day but for me it's the carrot and the stick. The carrot, in that I get to see how well I've done, and the stick, because I'm going to see if I messed up. besides seeing that number go down encourages me to stick to this because it's actually working.

SBD: day 9

Jul. 5th, 2011 09:48 am
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lost 1.1 pounds according to w.f. (I think part of that is clothes). I'm still trying to figure out why the weight loss decreased. I'm thinking maybe vitamins?
Totally punked out on my middle interval and my last one was only 1:30 rather than 1:45. I also woke up later (8:30) so I didn't get out until 9:10. Too hot to do crap like that! ugh. shower then breakfast time.

12:48 am
Tried to be really good today - ate chicken for lunch and lots of veggies. Tried not to eat too many nuts. Took my vitamins. We'll see how it turns out tomorrow.

SBD: day 8

Jul. 4th, 2011 09:04 pm
greenxyzcannonball: (confused)
8:58 pm
didn't lose any weight yesterday. Can't think of why except maybe too many nuts? I'm still craving salt mostly, and sometimes sweet. Not sure if that means I need more water (although it seems like I'm always drinking water). I did have some coke zero yesterday, two cans, one at lunch and the other trying to make it into a slushie (which didn't work). Tried to be good today, I've had about 1.5 servings of nuts but haven't had any meat. Over a week on this diet and I still just don't care for meat. I maintain that meat's more difficult to cook well and I don't like it as well as veggies or starches. Go figure. Don't know what else I can do though, since apparently that's part of my eating problem. I really wish I didn't have to eat. It's become a burden. Not that I want to starve myself because I want to be thin - it's just annoying to constantly have to question what and how much and when and in which combinations...I'd rather just have someone stick an IV in me and I'll eat only if I want to.
Planning to have spaghetti squash and one of those chicken breasts for dinner. Still haven't figured out how to reheat the chicken without getting jerky. Meat. ugh.
greenxyzcannonball: (bitch slap)
One of my favorite bloggers, Yarn Harlot, mentioned in her annual Canada Day post, that one of the things that made her proud about her country is that same-sex marriages are legal.
I'm going to give my opinion here, with the rider that I welcome thoughtful comments (with citations, please) but not flames. Click if you wish to proceed.
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sbd: day 7

Jul. 3rd, 2011 09:50 am
greenxyzcannonball: (ren smile)
9:48 am
Well, Not only did I have french toast yesterday, I also went out to dinner with my parents and I had a margarita, a dinner roll and french fries. At least I only had one roll and no croutons. I've gained about 1.3 pounds, according to my wiifit. Oh well. Back on the diet today. At least I got through all of my 1:30 intervals today. I think next run I'll do 1:45, 1:30, 1:45, 1:30,1:45 if I can. Those 30 seconds were hard won and I know increasing is going to be tough, so 15 seconds every other interval I hope will be manageable.

spaghetti squash is turning out to be my savior on this diet. Good, tasty, filling, and close enough to spaghetti I can fake myself out. Now if I could get to where I liked tomato sauce, it'd be great. I picked up some italian seasoning tonight and I'm planning to put it on my bowl of squash tonight, with some parmesan. Nom. Next Monday I can have bread again, whee! or let me rephrase that, "1 serving of healthy carbs".

SBD: day 6

Jul. 2nd, 2011 03:00 pm
greenxyzcannonball: (scared)
Did ok at dinner, but cheated today for breakfast. My friend Suki and I were going to try out a dim sum restaurant but when we got there they were closed. We ended up stopping at a little restaurant called Sisters instead...and I had Challah french toast. So good. I will just have to be very very good the rest of today and maybe tack on an extra day of no carb-ing. Felt a little sleepy on the drive home; I had some peanuts but they didn't help much. May have been due to boredom.
Going out to eat with my parents tonight at a steakhouse, so the no carb thing should be pretty easy, I hope.

sbd: day 5

Jul. 1st, 2011 11:08 am
greenxyzcannonball: (depression)
11:06 am
No loss yesterday...I think I had too many peanuts. *sigh* It's the only thing I could think of that qualified as "snack food". Tonight will be dinner at a friend's house - hopefully she'll have food I can eat. I'd love it if she had spaghetti squash.

3:23 pm
cheated already...i keep falling asleep mid-day. I don't feel hungry, it's just i get so tired all of a sudden. Blood sugar dip, maybe? I had a truffle.
had salad and cheese chips for lunch. thin layer of cheese works best but it burns quicker and it's harder to tell when it's done. Not bad with a little greek yogurt though.

SBD: day 4

Jun. 30th, 2011 07:27 am
greenxyzcannonball: (bitch slap)
7:24 am
Only lost .4 pounds this morning. :-/ It's good it's a loss, but still...Every day I lose less. I'm trying to figure out what it was. I had tea - unsweetened though; maybe too many nuts? or maybe I shouldn't have had both the flan and the fudgesicle? The flan's mostly egg though and I'm trying to eat them all before they go bad. I was pretty lethargic yesterday though....That's the one thing that frustrates me about this diet, I can't say "Oh it was because I did this that I didn't lose weight/as much weight yesterday." I'm not 100% sure how it works so I can't figure it out. Oh well, time to go run.

7:18 pm
Mom said when she went on the Adkins diet the weight loss tapered off too. So it may just be that I'm getting used to no carbs. Sucks though. Helped my mom clean the leaves off the patio cover - tired both of us out but it looks a lot better. Glad I still had some sunscreen from my run though, she burned pretty badly. I just got a little on my nose and the back of my neck. Hopefully that burned off some more weight. Fingers crossed.

SBD: Day 3

Jun. 29th, 2011 11:57 am
greenxyzcannonball: (confused)
Only lost 0.7 pounds yesterday (I had lost 1.3 and .9 the other two mornings). I ran yesterday, which should have helped, I thought, but I did have one piece of candy and a fudgesicle. I didn't eat meat yesterday - I had veggies and cheese for breakfast, then I got a headache and went back to bed for about 2.5-3 hours, then I had nachos with coke zero. I wasn't really hungry so I snacked on nuts and had the fudgesicle as "dinner". I stayed up way late too.
I'll try to do better today and eat meat. I got up not long ago, nothing I can do about that. I couldn't get to sleep last night, I guess because of the nap I took. Tonight I'm going to start getting ready for bed earlier, maybe drink some chamomile.

10:23 pm
Another day down the drain. Really must do something about this propensity to fall asleep for 3 hours in the middle of the day. It's messing up my sleep schedule and I don't want to get used to a siesta. Didn't finish half what I meant to - I have a sewing project I absolutely want to have done by Friday, didn't go to KnitWitz because the sewing wasn't done, fell asleep on the couch and woke up not to be productive but just to finish "Little Women" which I downloaded Monday night. Argh. I always mean to do things but when I take a "break" it seems to turn into a "Quit". Most frustrating.
Anyway, have done ok on the diet, except for eating too many nuts. I think it's the saltiness that draws me to them. Ate meat at lunch and frankly I'm not that hungry now. If I get hungry later I may have some spaghetti squash and cheese.

SBD: day 2

Jun. 28th, 2011 10:24 am
greenxyzcannonball: (love hate)
10:23 am
Trying to figure out if I could make pancakes with some sort of egg and ground nut/seed mixture. This would undoubtedly be easier to test if I had a blender or a food processor.
In other news 5 1:30 intervals today, although I punked out on the last two - only 1:15 on those. Woke up an hour later than usual and the extra heat didn't help. Also there are more people out at 930ish than at 830ish, including a good looking guy in glasses walking his dog. :) Improved scenery was appreciated.

11:18 am
crudites for breakfast. well it could be worse, I suppose. At least the Alouette garlic & herb cheese spread tastes sort of like ranch.
On an unrelated note: I had a geekgasm a minute ago when I saw two of my favorite authors were twittering to each other. *squee*

5:56 pm
Still missing carbs, although I'm trying to find ways around them. Trying to focus on proteins - nuts are officially my new favorite snack - but I still feel like meat is an unnecessary pain in the neck. I don't want or need meat every day. I feel like if I am looking at this from a purely biological standpoint, humans would not have had meat every single day. Every couple of days, probably, but I'm willing to bet most days were nuts, roots, plants - which is more my preference anyway.
I know I am a nutritionist's worst nightmare by being very picky and lazy to boot, but I'm trying to work within the confines of this diet, and so far so good. I haven't had a bite of pasta, bread, rice, fruit or pastry since Sunday - which is terribly unusual for me (please don't ask me how bad I want a huge plate of pasta with a side of garlic bread right now. Also, I have discovered a latent craving for krispy kremes - no doubt because I have a coupon in my wallet for a free dozen. Too bad I can't use it one donut at a time).
However, I have had a little success in meals although I am not used to food prep taking this long.
First, cheese chips/taco shells + nacho fixin's (beans, lettuce, sour cream greek yogurt)
Cheese chips tasted really good - although it is important to keep 2 points in mind: let the cheese brown - all of it; make an even layer of cheese so it's not holey. Also important to note is to use paper plates topped with parchment paper...I tried this on both regular plates and on a triple thickness of parchment paper. The paper plate helps soak up the inevitable grease. That being said once you load them up, I didn't much miss the corn chips I would normally have. The greek yogurt substitution was a last-minute thing; I got some to try for later so when my sour cream was found to have started raising new life forms, I just used the greek yogurt. It tastes a lot like sour cream (so I probably wouldn't eat it alone) but hopefully the yogurt bacteria will keep me from the problems I have with milk-based products. On the whole very good.

I'm going to try my mom's classic baked ziti recipe with spaghetti squash either tonight or tomorrow. I had the squash with a little butter and parm cheese with oregano; the spice gave it more bite and it was rather good.

SBD: day 1

Jun. 27th, 2011 05:08 pm
greenxyzcannonball: (awkward)
So, worst part of this diet for me is trying to find breakfast food. I don't really do the smoothie route - I like solid food for breakfast - and anyway there are no fruit on this part of the diet. I can have soymilk which is good but the omelet I had yesterday was rather bleh. I don't really like meat for breakfast and my opinion of eggs still hasn't been changed (I don't care for them). So breakfast was ants on a log and cheese.
Spaghetti squash is great if you doctor it up a bit.

The hardest part of this diet for me is that I don't like meat much. Given the option I will almost always go for starch or even veggie before meat. This diet is of course trying to push you to eat less carbohydrates and more veggies and meat. Veggies I can see, but meat...I'm seriously considering just going vegetarian. Easier except I don't know how to cook meat substitutes (like tofu) either. And before you ask, no, it's not an animal cruelty issue; it's simply that I don't care for the taste and texture of most meats. Fish, now, I might could do on occasion. I <3 sushi. I've gotten to where meat = chicken for me and I'm kind of bored with it.
Dinner will probably be half a chicken breast sauteed in mojo marinade with steamed veggies though. (I'd rather have black beans and rice, but I can't have rice -_-)

I'm still craving carbs. I can eat until I KNOW I'm full but I don't feel full. It's like my brain is going "Where are my freakin' carbs? Keep eating!" even when there's no room left.
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omelet was meh. needed spices and more flavorful cheese (dad suggested sharp cheddar instead of the 4 cheese blend I used) >.< turned out ok-ish, I guess, since that's the first time I've ever made one. I need to turn the heat lower, it bubbled in spots.
Ate about half, though I picked out the chicken I put in there. It just didn't look appetizing and the olives, green pepper and mushrooms were much tastier. At least I'm not really hungry right now. Snack's going to be hummus + mushrooms, om nom nom.

SBD: day 0

Jun. 26th, 2011 09:26 am
greenxyzcannonball: (ren smile)
Yay 1:30 intervals! and I made it through all of them! I haven't been able to jog that much ever! (so please excuse my overuse of exclamation points) Now for the next challenge: learning to make and eat an omelet.
greenxyzcannonball: (evil master mind)
So tomorrow I'm going to start Phase 1 of the So___ Be___ Diet. I am trying to be cautiously optimistic - y'all know I love love love my carbs, and for phase 1, you have to cut way back on them. So for the next 2 weeks (at least) I'll be eating veggies and protein - it's a lot like the Adkins diet but not so dead-set against carbs and it doesn't advocate eating a lot of fatty foods like butter or bacon. My last meal was a Homewrecker jr at Moe's...ugh, definitely feeling it atm.

I bought a couple of things at Publix - chicken breasts, more veggies, hummus and mushrooms (thanks Shayna!), and eggs. I'm not a big fan of eggs but I am going to try my level best to learn to like them. I'm going to try an omelet tomorrow - which should be interesting considering I've never made one before. Also no soy milk for phase 1 :( but I can have tea :) which is great because I have a LOT of tea. Like, it's getting old. Green teas, herbal teas, black teas - including more varieties of Earl Grey than any sane person should have. Only downside is no sugar (sugar substitutes like splenda are allowed - what's best? splenda, truvia?). I can drink herbal or green for a day or two - I've gotten to where I don't take sugar in those, and only 1 tsp in black tea.

Also, I intend to keep up with my new (slightly modified) running program. Basically running doing warmup-intervals-cooldown on one day, then wii-fit or weights the next. I want to try to find a belly dancing video - I think it'd do wonders for my core. I'd like to join a class money coming in right now, so I need to do this cheaply. Might spring for a mirror to put in my living room though.

I'll try to post every day or two, because I think it'll be helpful for me to document what is and isn't working for me. Wish me luck!


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